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  Maryanne, caught off guard by the explanation, uncrossed her arms. “Oh, well I guess that makes sense,” she replied contritely. “I’m sorry, dear. It’s just you’ve been acting a little strange lately. You know, happy one minute, distracted the next?” Maryanne explained apologetically “You usually confide in me and I was just worried something was wrong.”

  Julie smiled and patted her secretary’s arm and responded, “Thanks, Mare, I appreciate your concern. But I’m fine. Really.” She felt a twinge of guilt for lying to Maryanne, but then she reassured herself by thinking, Well, I really am fine. Glancing down at her watch, she saw it was after 1:00. She would need to leave now to meet Alex. She smiled again at her friend and grabbed her purse off the desk.

  “I’m starving,” she announced, patting her flat stomach. “Now that I have my money, do you need anything from the cafeteria?”

  “No, I’m full,” Maryanne replied, returning to her desk to pick up the ringing phone. She waved at Julie as Julie left the floor.

  Julie leaned against the back of the elevator once inside. She felt deceptive, but what was she going to say to Maryanne? “I’m having a torrid affair with an employee? I want to feel young again because I missed my youth? Josh doesn’t appreciate me anymore?” No, Maryanne would never approve of Julie’s behavior, regardless of the reason. If she just kept the whole thing quiet, nobody would get hurt. Enjoying a little personal attention from an attractive and interesting friend, she would be a happier and more content person. Alex, too, would feel better and in the end, she would be more pleasant at home and at work. It was a win win situation for everyone.

  Then why do I feel like I’m trying to convince myself of that? Julie wondered while entering the lobby and heading toward the employee cafeteria. It was the height of the lunch time rush, but Julie spotted Alex easily. He was in front of the salad bar, piling his plate with greens and veggies. Finally, she thought to herself, a man that knows how to eat right. Starting over in his direction, she was careful not to appear too anxious. She glanced around as she sidled up next to him, making sure nobody was close enough to hear them.

  “Hey stranger! Imagine bumping into you here,” she remarked teasingly, grabbing a steaming plate.

  He turned to her and with a sly grin, replied, “I’d like to bump into you somewhere else.”

  Julie could not help but giggle again. She couldn’t believe how ridiculous she sounded, but once again, she had lost all control in Alex’s presence. Alex just implying intimacy between the two of them turned her on in a way she had never experienced before.

  “Hmmm,” she responded, “I’d like that too, I think.” She winked at him, piling lettuce on her plate.

  Alex followed her as she went around the other side of the salad bar to retrieve some olives. “Oh I know you’d like it. There would be more than just ‘bumping’,” he replied in his husky voice, glancing around to ensure nobody was around. “There would be moaning and screams of pleasure,” he whispered.

  Julie was getting hotter and hotter with every word he spoke, to the point where she could barely contain her excitement. Moving away from Alex away, she got in line for the cashier. She was rummaging for her wallet when she felt Alex behind her. He was standing so close that she could feel his breath on the left side of her neck. Tingles ran down her entire left side. She suppressed a nervous laugh as she paid the cashier and stepped away. She scanned the cafeteria, looking for a table in a quiet area.

  Since it was a hospital where patient confidentiality is an issue, there were several tables in the “Quiet area”. These tables were behind glass partitions throughout the cafeteria. The doctors or nurses could eat and discuss patient issues without being overheard by other staff and violating patient confidentiality. Julie spotted an empty table in a quiet area near the exit of the cafeteria. She started toward the table, aware that Alex was following her. Once they arrived at the table, the both placed their trays down and sat.

  Despite the flirting and bantering that they had been engaging in at the salad bar, they both fell into an awkward silence. As they ate their lunch wordlessly, Julie began to panic. What if someone saw them eating together? What would Julie say they were talking about? She realized she really should take her lunch upstairs.

  “Alex, this may not be the best idea to be eating here where everyone can see us. I think I better go upstairs,” Julie alleged, standing up. She started to lift her tray and Alex pushed it back down.

  “Don’t worry about it, Julie,” he replied confidently, pulling a file out from under his tray. We are discussing a patient of mine.” He winked as he showed her the file of courses she had given to him weeks prior.

  Julie, relieved at the excuse to stay, sat back down. “Oh, well, in that case…” she replied with a smile.

  Alex scooted his chair next to hers. “I need to sit close to you to discuss this patient,” he explained with a wicked grin. His knee was touching her thigh, causing a warm sensation to run down the length of her leg. He placed his hand on her knee and rubbed the inside of her thigh. The tingle started to rise up her leg, along with Alex’s hand. Julie was thankful that the glass partition started at the tabletops, so no one could see what was going on underneath the table. She knew many doctors and nurses carried on illicit behaviors at the quiet tables, which of course, she had always frowned upon. Today, those behaviors didn’t seem terrible. As a matter of fact, at the moment, they felt damn good. Alex’s hand was sliding into the waistband of her pants and she felt powerless to stop him. In fact, she had no desire to stop him. She wanted him to touch her and calm the throbbing that she was now experiencing. However, Julie reminded herself that she needed to be the rational party in this situation.

  “Alex,” she scolded in a teasing tone, “you need to stop!” He continued smiling with his irresistible dimples.

  “Am I making you wet?” he purred. “Maybe I need to check.” He slid his hand into her pants, fingers creeping into her panties. He slipped his finger into her moist folds. Biting down on her lip, Julie jumped up, nearly breaking his wrist in the process.

  “Ok that’s too much,” Julie hissed, adjusting her pants. “This is not the place for this.”

  Alex leaned back in his chair, putting his hands behind his head. “So where is the place for this? Broom closet? Back seat of a car? Hotel room?” he asked jokingly.

  Julie sat back down and moved her chair to the side, out of Alex’s reach. “I don’t know,” she sighed, chest thundering with her rapid heartbeat. “I haven’t given it that much thought. Aren’t we just seeing where this takes us?”

  Alex leaned in toward her. “Yeah, we are. I’m thinking it’s taking us to a place where we should get naked.” His steel blue eyes bored into hers, causing Julie to look away.

  “I don’t know Alex. I think that’s a little much right now. That’s really serious stuff,” Julie responded, biting her nails. She had been a nail biter all through her teenage years, a nervous habit that she had broken herself of in college. She was shocked that she found herself resuming it as she spoke to Alex.

  Alex took her hand out of her mouth and rubbed it. “Don’t do that,” he scolded. “Your hands are beautiful. You’ll ruin them by biting your nails.” Julie just nodded at him, once again mesmerized by his passionate deep voice. Alex continued, “I’m sorry if I came on too strong. I just see you and I can’t help but touch you,” he crooned, staring into her eyes once more. “You have this hold on me that I can’t shake. I feel like I can finally be myself with you.” He held his hands up. “I promise though, I won’t touch anymore unless you want me to.”

  Julie couldn’t believe her ears. He had just described how she felt. The connection they had was amazing, she had to admit. It was almost as if they had known each other for years, rather than mere weeks. She did want him to touch her. She didn’t want him to stop, but she knew she needed to be realistic. They were sitting in a crowded room at their place of employment. A place where she was his boss
.

  Julie smiled at him as she spoke, “I want you to touch me. I want to touch you. You make me feel like I haven’t felt in years,” Julie paused before finishing. “You also have a hold on me and I feel alive when you’re with me. But here is not the place. We need to be careful or this could go very bad for both of us, quickly,” she reiterated.

  “Ok,” Alex agreed. “So just so I have this straight, you want me, I want you and someday we’ll get naked and screw each other’s brains out, but not here, not today?”

  Julie couldn’t help but laugh. “Well gee I wouldn’t put it so dirty, but yeah, that’s the gist of it.” Alex scratched his chin pensively.

  “Ok,” he replied. “I can live with that.” Then he stopped, as if in thought. “So I shouldn’t grab your ass as you leave, then?” A sly smile curled on his lips.

  Julie poked him with her fork. “That would be a huge no no,” she replied. It was so easy to flirt with him and despite the awkwardness of the situation, she as totally at ease with him. She stood up and pointed at him with the plastic fork. “Now try to control your hands as I leave the room,” she teased. Alex gawked at her as if he were undressing her with his eyes.

  “Oh I’ll control my hands alright,” he replied. “But I’m not so sure I can control everything else,” he added while pointing to his scrub bottoms. Julie glanced down to see a bulge in his scrub pants. She turned bright red realizing that she had the power to do that to him.

  “I’m, I’m sorry…” she stammered, clearly embarrassed.

  Alex simply winked and replied, “Oh, don’t be sorry. Just tell me you’ll take care of it. Soon.” Julie’s color deepened, but she was insanely turned on by his naughty banter. She didn’t reply; instead she simply blew him an air kiss and left the table, leaving him to watch her walk her away

  .Chapter 13

  The next day was full of meetings that Julie wished she could reschedule. Highly distracted by sexual fantasies of Alex, she accidentally called the board of directors’ secretary Alex instead of Anthony at least three times during their meeting. In addition, she rode the elevator past her floor twice on her way back upstairs after lunch while thinking about his touching her during lunch. A smile remained on her lips all afternoon, despite her distraction.

  Julie was planning to leave early so that she could spend some extra time with the girls. Since she had arrived after their bedtime the night before and had not seen them that morning, the “mommy guilt” was starting to eat away at her conscience. Earlier in the afternoon, she called Josh to tell him that she planned a “girls’ night” with dinner and a movie they had been begging her to see. He had called her back shortly after to report that they were ecstatic. As she was packing up her belongings to leave for the day, her cell phone buzzed on her desk. Incoming text from Alex. I’m on an 8 hour shift today. Leaving in 15 minutes. Meet me outside?

  Julie quickly responded. Don’t think it’s wise to be seen together so much. She would love to see him again before leaving for home, but she was trying to refrain from making a bad judgment call. Alex’s reply didn’t come for several minutes. Julie assumed he had just accepted her answer and was leaving. Right as Julie was locking up her office door, her phone buzzed with his reply. Meet me in the parking lot of Manchester Paramedics. Nobody there knows you.

  Julie hesitated, torn between getting home early and seeing Alex. She considered the situation for a few minutes before typing her reply in the elevator. But they know you. Who will you say I am?

  Alex instantly shot back, My girlfriend. Julie froze while reading the message.

  I guess I must be, she realized, pressing the lobby button with a satisfied smile. She hadn’t been referred to as anyone’s girlfriend in a long time and it felt very agreeable.

  She sent a text saying she would be there in a few minutes and then proceeded to send a message to Josh, explaining something had come up and she would not be home as soon as she had hoped.

  She hurried to her car, heart racing. Was she anxious about meeting Alex or was she nervous about possibly getting caught? Julie wasn’t sure. Once she took this step and met Alex outside of work, she feared there would be no turning back. She needed to calm her pounding heart before getting to her destination.

  When was settled in her car, she searched through her CDs for some calming music. Picking classical music CD that she rarely listened to, she popped it into the car’s CD player. The soothing music soon filled the vehicle and Julie began to breathe deeply as if she were in yoga class. After a few minutes of this calming routine, she felt confident enough to make her way out of the parking lot and up the highway to meet Alex.

  She turned off of Route 414 on to the exit ramp for the neighboring town of Manchester. Huntington used a paramedic company in Manchester for any emergencies that the regular squads did not have the expertise for. This was where Alex worked on his days off and before he was a nurse, Julie was assuming. Turning right, she pulled into the gravel parking lot, feeling like her tires were creating the most audible crunching noise ever. The lot was nearly empty except for two cars and one run down old pick-up truck at the front by the bay doors. A black Honda was parked all the way in the back of the lot. Julie could see Alex leaning against the Honda. She pulled her Range Rover next to his car and cut the engine. She sat there for a moment, not sure whether to wait for him to come over to her or to get out and go to him. Alex answered the question for her by rapping on her window and waving to her to get out. Julie took one more deep breath before unbuckling her seat belt and opening the car door.

  Alex smiled as Julie closed her door and alarmed her car. “Hi, sexy” he purred, wrapping his arms around her. Julie’s whole body felt relaxed. His arms were muscular and strong, causing her to feel safe and comfortable.

  Julie was on the short side for a woman, 5’3”, and he towered over her.

  “How tall are you?” she asked, staring up at him.

  He chuckled. “No, hello? Just how tall are you? What are you fitting me for a suit?” He embraced her tighter. Julie shook her head, “No I just wondered. Josh is 6 foot and you seem so much taller….” She trailed off realizing she had brought up her husband without meaning to. If Alex was bothered by the mention of Josh, he didn’t show it.

  “6’3”,” was his reply. He touched her face gently. “There’s a few picnic tables in the clearing back there,” he motioned toward the trees. “Do you want to go sit down? We’ve both been on our feet all day.” Julie nodded and Alex took her by the hand, leading her off to the right by a picnic grove, her heels sinking in the moist grass. There were three tables and a small barbeque pit. The trees were situated around all sides of the grove so it was virtually hidden from the building and the road.

  Alex sat on top of the first picnic table and pulled Julie toward him. Nearly level with him, her chest was against his flat abdomen, her stomach against his groin. She could feel the warm throbbing sensation returning between her thighs. It had been years since a simple embrace had given rise to such a response. Probably had not been since college that she felt this, well, horny. She tittered nervously at the thought.

  “What’s so funny?” Alex inquired brushing her cheek with the back of his hand.

  “Oh, nothing really,” Julie answered enjoying his touch. “I was just thinking about how I feel like a teenager right now. Sneaking off into the woods to make out.”

  Alex smiled innocently. “Who says we’re here to make out?”

  Julie was caught off guard. “Well,” she stammered, backing away, unsure what he meant, “I just assumed that’s why you wanted to come here.”

  Alex continued to grin as he drew her closer. “I wanted to come here to do this,” he replied decisively, placing both hands on either side of her face and bringing her lips to his. Their lips touched and parted, tongues passionately seeking each other. Julie felt her whole world melt away as if nothing existed but her and Alex. No longer was she a wife, a mother, a nurse, a responsible member of the comm
unity. She was a carefree girl alone in the woods with a boy who made her see stars when his hands were on her and feel explosions when they kissed. Nothing else mattered to Julie except this moment right now. Nobody had ever kissed her with such ferocity, such emotion. All her senses were heightened. She could smell his aftershave, taste his mouthwash, feel the warmth from his body and hear his rapid breathing. Each sensation caused her to desire to be as close to him as possible.

  He ran his tongue down her neck. “I want you inside me,” she moaned breathlessly in his ear, unable to control the words escaping her lips. She couldn’t believe what she was saying.

  “Um, hmm. I want it, too.” His hand had found her waistband again and was wriggling into her panties. Julie moaned with ecstasy as he began to insert his fingers inside her. He slid in and out easily with her wetness. She began to lick his ear, a trick a few college boyfriends had found agreeable. Alex appeared to also, as he emitted small grunts of pleasure. She could feel him hardening against her stomach. Julie took her right hand and untied the drawstring to his scrubs. Pushing her hand into his pants, she quickly found his throbbing penis. She needed it inside her right now and she didn’t care that she was in the middle of a picnic grove, off a highway, at 4:00 in the afternoon. Alex’s fingers were massaging her clit in ways she never dreamed possible. As she rubbed him inside his pants, she felt herself coming close to climaxing. Suddenly, the siren from an exiting ambulance blared, causing both Julie and Alex to jump.

  They realized the source of the noise, but nonetheless, ended up in a fit of laughter, the mood completely ruined.

  Alex looked at Julie apologetically. “Sorry about that. I forgot this place is unpredictable and can be rather loud at times.”

  Julie smoothed her clothes. “It’s ok,” she replied. “That brought me back to reality. That’s probably what I needed.”

  “Yes,” Alex agreed. “This is not a good place for something so intimate.”